Ponderings

And if I cry in the dark of night
and no one sees me, hears me
Could I still feel the sad remorse
that it leaves me?

I cry out loud
whimper inside
fear all I feel
Hoping nothing is real

I scream again
and never hear my voice
I only think I did
So if I scream and no one hears
Could I be insane

Could I be insane
and smile again
Or only tremble
and cry

All my tears
are begging to come out
but haven’t found their way
Past the debris of my clouded mine
My heart alone knows the way